A couple months ago I had just gotten home from having a couple drinks with Jake when I received a text from Nathan asking for a favor. Nathan and I met while attending a conference together 4 years ago. He was nice, funny, and easy to talk to so it’s no surprise that I developed a little crush on the guy. Unfortunately I wasn’t able to act on the crush as we were both dating other people at the time.
Years pass and we see each other occasionally on campus but don’t really hang out for longer than 10 minutes at a time. So when he asked for a favor this particular Friday night I had no problem lending my services as I was excited for an excuse to see him while he was in town (he had recently moved to the quad-cities).
Turns out the poor guy had lost his keys in one of the bars and by the time we reached them they were all closing down and told him to come back the next day. As I’m sure you can guess this led Nathan to ask to crash if he could crash on my couch.
Back at the apartment it didn’t take long for him to make a move. The situation had potential to go one of two ways:
It would turn into amazing no strings attached sex with a long time crush or I would be heavily disappointed in one way or another.
If you guess that it was an awful experience you’d be correct! Not only was he sloppy drunk - potentially inhibiting his ability to kiss decently but he also emitted a strange, high-pitched moan occasionally. The strangest part was that there was no reason for him to be moaning.
Uh... what...?
Once I realized he was going to be sloppy in bed I decided I was going to be selfish and just make out with him and if he wanted to still venture south of the border so be it. Granted he knew what he was doing with his hands but the moaning was a little distracting at times.
Don’t get me wrong; it can be incredibly sexy when a man sighs or groans occasionally when pleasuring me... I take it as a sign they are enjoying themselves. But this was the equivalent of those annoying girls in porn with their non-stop moaning and high-pitched voices telling you that yes: you are God’s gift to women (not..)
Did I feel a bit like a selfish bitch the next day? Yes. But I had made it very clear I didn’t want to have sex and I have a pretty strict policy against oral sex unless I really like the person. I feel it’s important to stay true to yourself and to not compromise your body if it’s not something you really want.
So there you have it. I imagined what it would be like to hook up with this guy for 4+ years only to be disappointed when the opportunity came. Bummer.
My question to you all is this: Have you ever gotten the opportunity to hook up with someone you’ve always wanted? Did it go well or was it a disaster like mine? I’d love to hear your stories!
